panging

just a quickie before i have to get my day started.

am really nervous about applying to grad school. am having major insecurities that i am simply not good enough. why is my art so weird? why is it so crude? ugh. it's so annoying. i wish it was all easier. i'm still applying anyway though, i mean, what the hell. i have nothing to lose. if i don't get in i just work in my awesome studio again next year and that will be fine too.

i didn't sleep at all much last night. i feel a little out of sorts. wanna get some painting and lots of drawing done too-daygay. today is gay. just kidding haayyy.

need coffee.

worried. >:[