she rings like a bell through the night

so as fate has it, the one day when i am fully rested and ready for my day from hell, there of course, is no work to be had. of course.

involuntary day off. and up early!

yesterday i was telling my roommates about the story of my work day: the night before i got to bed around 3am and totally slept through my alarm and woke up at 952am, 8 minutes before the last subfinder call, after having missed about 6 or 7 calls. regretful that i have been irresponsible, i check for jobs and there is one waiting for me at a site i've been before for a full day's work! so i get there at 11am, and there are only 2 kids and like 6 teachers. i went out to lunch (and ate an awesome burrito, finally) and relieved the duties from one of the teachers, sat around and read a book on typography, and got home at 315. and got paid for a full day's work. i was so grateful and in disbelief. i felt i cashed in good karma. in response to this, james quipped that i am "grateful for my good fortune." i guess that's true. that's one thing i got going for me.

shadowplay

this is bello. bello is rachel's cat, who along with this cat, bert:



have broken me in, and realized that i needed to get a cat.

i never really liked cats. for years i've been an adamant dog person, promoting canines as the superior companion, that their unconditional loyalty and protective qualities were really man's best friend. cats, as far i was concerned, were useless, fussy, tempremental, boney, fragile things with claws and accompanied a particular type of owner (i was also kind of scared of them for all these reasons, true or untrue). never, ever, ever would i have thought that i would be cleaning up my apartment, as if preparing for a new baby, to welcome a cat into my home, my life.

what changed? maybe it's because i'm getting older. maybe, in my very young twenties, tempting the idea (hormonally) of motherhood, i feel i need to take care of something. or, maybe i nee something in my life to smother with my runoff affections. or because they're cute. or because i need more obligation/responsbility in my life. i think all of these reasons are true.

i never thought of myself as "feline," but maybe i'm turning over a new leaf. this year, i know, is going to be full of transitions (serious and not), so perhaps it marks a milestone. rachel told me she got bello exactly when she was my age, and he has travelled all around the country with her. although i don't plan (or know, rather) if i will be travelling the country, it's a start, as i uh, travel down the road of life. or something.

"enlighted"

a woman had a seizure during my yoga class tonight.

that was awkward.

i could wrong i could be right

may the road rise with you!

haven't blogged for a while. sorry, audience of 4.

i have to pee. but on another note, where have i come to in the new year so far?

new years are very important to me. so is the actual holiday. but it's more momentous than birthdays i think, and not because i forget how old i am a lot (it's true), but changing a number on the gregorgian calendar is a big deal with no take backs! it's time, time in joint.

this would be the time i would talk about resolutions. so here goes. last year my resolution was to be less nice, and i think i accomplished that to a fair degree-- not being bitch, but simply being less deferent... so i guess i could continue that resolution into 2008 and the years to come. resolution number 2 is to read more. i think last year i might have read like, 2 books? so shameful. there is no excuse for that. and a footnote to that resolution is to finish reading a book even if it gets kind of bad instead of putting it down. because you never know! that's basically it as far as resolutions go. i'm trying to keep it realisitc.

i'm also quite proud of my ardent politicism this year; the first year i've read the california propositions. i always feel like a jackass when i go to vote and i just stare at all the props and i blindly vote liberally on all of them... even though that is generally what i'd do anyway, i want to at least feel i can take responsibility for it. i have not yet decided on a presidential candidate, however.

i spent all day in my studio yesterday and finished two paintings and broke ground on another. first time i've done that in a while. i finished a painting i've been working on for over 6 months... get that shit outta my face!

saw the matta-clark and cosima von bonin show today at moca. good thing i remembered to go 2 days before it closes... not that it hasn't happened before (i'm so neglectful). i'll write more on that later.